Why does doing the right thing often bring pain to us? Why do some of us have such a strong sense of righteousness? Why can't doing the thing we want (which may not be right) also be the righteous thing to do?
The seemingly endless pain and suffering one is made to endure till the light appears can be so harsh that sometimes, it may be too late to feel vindicated about being righteous, or worse, too late to change past decisions and change the course of destiny. If we are hopeful (rather hope "fool"), we may spend the rest of our lives hoping that one day we will have paid our penance and get the fruits of that one righteous act. If we are shitbat crazy and ridiculously lucky, then we may actually be able to make a miracle happen. And in the best case scenario - if the pain caused by that righteousness was the outcome of a lifelong of penance that we were born to endure, then we end up living the rest of our lives learning that the passion behind our righteous act is itself an infinite victory. If and when that happens, that suffering ceases to cause pain; it transforms into the panacea for all our ills, our reason and will to live and see every sunrise and every sunset, and ultimately non-attachment to any consequence of that righteous act, and countless more penances to pay and sacrifices to make.
Many of us can't be the person we want to be or have the kind of relationships we wish to have before putting some things in life to rest. The fact is that some of us feel so deeply that we don't even realize those emotions and desires exist. And if we do, we may not know how to access them in order to express them the right way. This post is for all those experiences, people, and wishes we forego in the name of the greater good. Hopefully, some day, the Universe will have the kindness to give us back in some way what we gave up as a reward for our righteousness. Or maybe it won’t. Either way, it surely will find its own sweet little way to work its magic and sustain us and itself, like it always has been since the dawn of time.
Okay enough seriousness. Fun time.
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